Much has been happening over the last few days. I am not quite sure what to think, what to do. I am trying to be strong, to be the one they can all lean on, but who do I have? This won't be easy. This is not allowed to be easy. I need anger, I need grief, I need fear, but all I can think is "hold it together, Chris, damn it, hold it together".
I realize that this is an ambigious, morbid post for many of you. I promise I will explain soon enough. For now, I just need some time, some space.